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Up On The Housetop
01:42
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2. |
You Never Call
02:19
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dear Sarah
long time no talk
it's been five years since I wrote you a letter
and fifteen years since you learned how to walk
but I hope you know I love you just as much
as the day you were born
your father might disagree
but what does your father know anyway?
hope things are nice in Utah
hope they treat you real sweet
I know you get sad around Christmas time
but I hope that you stay light on your feet
and there's not much going on around here
the house is the same
and as for your father
the fumes finally got to his brain
heard last week from your sister
and I just had to laugh
she sent me a picture
would it kill you to smile in just one photograph?
you say that I never see you
you think that I hold a grudge
but I guarantee you
if you need someone to blame, blame the judge
wish I could talk for longer
but your father's catching wise
you know he's always been stronger
and now he's got that look in his eyes
so don't be a stranger
keep in touch
if you were really in danger
then I guess we haven't changed much
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3. |
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I look pretty like I ought to
you feel better when you're drunk
that night I swore I saw you
stuffing something in the trunk
I watched it wriggle free
it left a trail as it came toward me
it had plenty to say
and it said it well
then it went on its way
right back to hell
a crack formed in the parking lot
and the rest I guess I forgot
but I remember what you did to me
I remember everything vividly
I found pictures in the attic
by the books that it wrote
and I saw you start to panic
when it went for your throat
it stuck you in the gut
and it blew the door shut
then it looked right at me
and I could swear it knew
it gave me the key
and it turned back to you
as I walked down the stairs
I heard your screams echoing everywhere
and in our bedroom, I turn on a light
and I feel happy for the first time since that night
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4. |
Grab Your Cubans
03:01
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found this rabbit on the sidewalk
by the Chevrolet
and his body's all torn up
but she wouldn't notice anyway
make plans for the coming
make plans for the worst of days
ignore all the warnings
let it play as it lays
found this cake out in the forest
by the heart that we carved
those we came before us
they ought've let their children starve
make her forget about last night
make her forget about the other ones
get the edges of the frame right
get it done
and in many years I'm sure she'll be gone
so swallow all your fears and turn the camera on
I take my coffee with a downer
to keep my balance right
I spilled it when you found her
playing with the lights
and I grabbed her by the wrist
and you yell at me to stop
why's it always come down to this
one victim and one good cop
you know where our money comes from?
you know why I can't fix the kitchen sink?
she'll get her star when she deserves one
so get me a drink
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5. |
Date Night
02:49
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drove out farther than we had to
to the only place
that still rents videotapes
and I saw you looking at the same one
that I was looking at
imagine that
it had one hand bulging from the darkness
red like a firetruck
and your eyes were stuck on the
silhouette of a woman in the doorway
you can't make out her face
nut you recognize this place
and the idols that blink in their syncopated rhythm
all around the house, shoddily hidden
the basement door that beckons for your touch
that final bit of gore that's just too much
it all makes sense to us
down here
drove back, stopped at the Arco
no price tags on the wine
but our savings are fine so we
get as many as the hatchback can carry
and we toss her car seat on the ground
and take off at the speed of sound
night falls, blood boils
a single burning wreck
with two bodies left to check
and the tape in its shell unspools on the floor
we don't know how it got there
and we don't even care
about the people who say they know what's best for us
they've never even seen Cannibal Holocaust
and when the car seat comes back into view
we deck scrub that thing 'til it looks good as new
and that's good enough for you
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6. |
It's All For You
02:25
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it's 5 AM
she's got that look in her eyes
she's alive again
all the colors in the sky
are bleeding through
the ceiling and they cast
around the room
a feeling that won't last
and have you noticed all the knives
missing from the kitchen drawer
have you noticed all the lines
scribbled on her bedroom floor
you can't say that I
don't know what I mean
I know what I've seen
and I know where she's been
crawling in the vents
tapping on the walls
making sure that if we run
we won't get far at all
we should've killed her
back when we had a chance
but instead we built her
a castle made of sand
where she can live
where she makes all the rules
where she can split
our precious love in two
and have you noticed how I shake
every time she comes near
have you noticed how she takes
every chance to disappear
you can't say that I
don't know what I mean
I know what I've seen
and I know where she's been
crying all the time
locked up in her room
all her fucking voodoo dolls
kicking in my womb
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7. |
Only Child
01:52
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all those potions we brewed together
through dark nights and aberrant weather
the sacrifice on the kitchen floor
your eyes up at me, begging for more
and our daughter in the room upstairs
fast asleep so she won't get scared
you hate it when i talk about her
don't you
all the stars we spotted so bright
and the voice on the radio telling us to fight
and the moment we see coming from a mile away
panasonic in the corner turning night into day
her teacher says she's concerned
when will those people learn
that every single move we make
is just a calculated mistake
and you smear the blood on your chest
and we're both looking our best
no one knows me like
you do
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8. |
tahoe 2009 daphne age 4
02:53
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one of these nights I'm gonna stand and watch
as all your teeth fall out
I'm gonna scoop them up, and drink the blood
and shove them right back into your mouth
and I know what you're thinking
I know that look
I can feel you shaking
I know what you took
you tried to hide the bottle, but it didn't really work
you told me adderall was your only little quirk
but you're lying
but you're lying
had a dream last afternoon and you were in it
she looked a lot like you at least
stared me down for a long, long minute
as the temperature decreased
and then she turned her back to me
and I heard her sigh
that's how I knew it was you
and I think you know why
she stuck her finger in my chest and she left it there
and I try to run my hand smooth through your hair
but you're crying
but you're crying
got out the projector, looked at the wall
saw the way we were together, I saw it all
you walked into the room, neither one of us could stand it
feels like the full moon always demands this
and you
sigh
and I
was right
your body's warm and it's cold on the floor
and I can't cum before you anymore
but I'm trying
but I'm trying
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9. |
Just Add Water
03:25
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in this house that we've built
we make like we're catholic, just for the guilt
and we pray so loud
that we can't hear the moan of our namesake's cloud
when the snow that falls on the street
settles in a bright red sheet
I don't know what it means
but I know that you're changing
same old scene out on the boat
caught that trout, slit its throat
I looked away, but you watched it squirm
you were waiting your turn
when the wound healed in full
and he threw himself off of the hull
I didn't see anything
but i knew you were changing
in this pit we've decided to call our home
all the load-bearing walls are made out of bones
and the earthquakes hit every other night
so there's no point in putting up a fight
when the femurs all splinter and break
and the ceiling starts to shake
I hold you down like i promised i would
and you wanna believe that it's for your own good
but you
you see me changing
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10. |
Forensics
01:44
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I got the blacklight
saw your prints on the doorknob
I got my facts right
heard the piano playing
real loud in the other room
but I could still hear you humming your safety tune
you are my sunshine
you are my sunshine
and what's that shape there
behind the curtain
you know it's not fair
when you tell them that you're
certain I'm gonna hurt you
when you know I'd never desert you
and I know where the cops live
and I know that you don't
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11. |
Speakeasy
03:13
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you always said they'd come
that's why we had a plan
hide the gun
if you can
get out the board games
if you can find them
if they lay blame
get behind them
I'll give you the signal
and you'll give them the slip
you've always been good
with your fingertips
and if she walks in
say it's just a game
say they'll all walk out
just the same as they came in
you always said they'd take her
that's why we made a pact
if we flip the breaker
there is no going back
and in our dark
they will see how we live
on my mark
forget then forgive
when they reach the basement
we'll reach for the switch
these floors were built
on a bottomless ditch
and if she walks in
just keep her by the door
tell her no one will hurt her
anymore
and if they caught her
by surprise
we'd get ourselves a brand new daughter
one that can open and shut her eyes
we'll get out the knives
she hid in her room
we'll see if they bleed
like real pigs do
we'll leave one alive
so he can tell his friends
this is the house
where everything ends
where the grass all dies
before it even sprouts
there's not a drop of water
in this California drought
so board up the windows
lock all the doors
and wipe all that blood
off the floor
and If she walks in
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12. |
Dear Sarah
02:52
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all the people in my life
who looked at me funny
all the people who bought Swisher Sweets
with my piggy bank money
and all the nights I spent in my room
wishing one of you would drop dead
just so the things I knew to be true
would start happening outside my head
and when the sun comes up
the sun stays up
and your letter's frozen over
from the cold
but I see your name
I remember your name
so I ball it up and I
swallow it whole
I think I grew up wrong
all the things I could say
to one or either of you
all the ways I could try
to get through
and all the time I've spent
wondering if you're worth it
good news
good news
good news
you deserve this
and then the sun came up
when I let it drop
and I could see my breath
for the first time
things are nice in Utah
the snow is warm in Utah
and you want kindness
well get in line
I think I grew up wrong
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13. |
People Who Look Like You
03:38
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I wanna know what happens
when I close my eyes
are you still there sleeping next to me
with your mouth open wide
or are you bending backwards
and climbing on the walls
waiting for the driver
the driver always calls
and when he does
you ride
past the cornfields by the market
where our children used to hide
and then he stops
at the end of the gravel road
and he waits for you
while you go wherever you go
I wanna know what happens
when you open the door
do you stumble for a moment
or do you know what you're looking for
and how many versions of you
are you keeping in those tanks
which one kissed me goodnight
and which one is the blank
and if you knew
would you tell me the truth
and if you do
then i'm gonna follow you
all the way out to
that goddamned factory
because I know, if I'm alone
I can find the man who married me
and I will unhook all his tubes
and I will tend to all his wounds
I will sit with him in the fluid
that keeps him shiny and new
and I will do
what I do
to people who
look like you
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